I was writing a great thing on people loving other people they love today and not letting a day go by without telling them how much they mean to them. Not letting the sun go down without that I'm sorry you owe for your bullshit thoughtless behavior earlier. I was writing to say that at 30 you still are your parents child. And at 50 should you be so lucky to have your parents. It hasn't changed. You still are your elderly parents child. True that now at 50 you are their "AARP "child.(if you are under 45 you most likely won't know what AARP is)...and you can have an early bird dinner together and everyone get that great discount. I was writing a great BLOG.....and I lost it! it went friggen bye bye!
I hate when that happens.
It's like finally getting to the park and getting your new expensive kite up in the air. Suddenly just then too a huge hurricane wind coming up and taking it up, up, and away. Never seeing your beautiful kite ever again! Or getting that wiggly worn finally on your hook and whipping your pole back to cast your line out. Seeing out of the corner of your eye your fat worm falling far behind you. It's like pulling that tough tooth out and securing it nicely under your bed pillow. Waking up and reaching under it and finding nothing there for all your effort's and pain you endured.
I will live though so it can't be that back. More frustrating than anything. I'm not sure what I accidentally pushed or hit with a finger to make my first blog disappear so I'm sure it's that that really bugs me most.
I'm too tired at this point to remember everything I wrote in my earlier version. I said mature thoughtful adults call their parents and talk about good things, ask how their aging parent is feeling and make point of never hanging up from a call with their parent worried about their child's lifestyle, behavior, bad choices. I was saying that at 18 it should be that a call for help from our parents is very rare and we should figure life out for ourselves and correct our bad budgeting and so on. I was saying that it's a shame to have good parent's, siblings, partners, even friends that we take for granted and wake up one day with them forever gone from us. It's so final. They really are never coming back. Those things you should have done, said, shown them but didn't can never be made up for. You are left living your life with huge regret and a hole in your heart as big as texas. Wiser you should be
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